Sunday, November 28, 2004
tired.
long day today. sighs. but it was funn.
yawns.
i think i'll write abt everything some other day. hahas.
nites (:
; rachh
6:29 PM
Saturday, November 27, 2004
=)
thanks sweetie. =)
dajie luvs you too. goodness youre like adorable lahh. lols.
*hides under the table again.!!
arghhs. i hope i dun do that again later at dinner. its gonna be even more embarassing. lols. k lahh ta girll. have a good time at umak's.
; ange
3:29 PM
birthday wishes for a very special person (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA JIE !!
hahas. i think we sang her like 3 or 4 birthday songs todayy. hees.
ohwells. just wanna say tht i lurve my da jie and jus wanna wish her all the best in the upcoming year. every year is tough. but every year brings with it reallie great memories. at some time or another. hope you'll enjoy it thoroughly (:
im reallie sorie i've been throwing my tanthrums. thanks for bearing with me. youre the best. takkaire and God bless.
smiles.
; rachh
2:29 PM
Friday, November 26, 2004
-
thought you would like to know.
the b*tch i scolded in my blog.
in fact. every b*tch i scolded in my blog.
was
myself.
im sorry for the misunderstanding caused.
; ange
1:16 AM
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
.
okayy.
i give up.
i'll go away.
bye.
; rachh
7:22 PM
Saturday, November 20, 2004
worship retreat.
woke up on friday and it was like... urghs.i seriously dont feel like getting out of bed sorta feeling.but i got out anywae.after all my bag was packed and my dad was 'raring' to go.hahas.
becky thought it started at ten cause thts wht the indemnity form said.so whn she told me we were gonna be late.i sorta freaked and was like darn.didnt even bother to check my watch.just went rush rush rush.reached church at 945am.wow.absolutely fantastic.thts like not early at all.all we could do was sit there and rot.ohh.becky was fussy abt her eyes.apparently smthg got into to her left eye and was irritating it.it went reallie reallie red and this yellowy pus thingie covered the corner of her eye.it was truly disgusting.
thn we waited.and we waited and we waited.thn hmsee msged tht she was coming.so i walked out to her hse.which is reallie very near.as i walked out.guess who i saw ? david wong.hahas.so enthu.anywae.im so glad hui min came.i mean yays.theres more girls my age now.ohh.and shes like piano grade 7.not bad ehh.not badd at all.but she says playing the keyboard for a band is reallie different frm playing piano.hahas.well i suppose.
our camp commandant,andrew and angel finally arrived in a taxi.hahas.i guessed correctly.poor angel was carrying a bigg watermelon[if i remember correctly].okayy.im gonna go in fast forward mode now.we had a briefing.had to intro ourselves.was silly enough to be upset by mitchell and liang song.decided to eat pizza for lunch.during the one hour waiting for the 2 for 1 pizza to arrive, we played this reallie lame game.hahas.lame but fun larhs.
hahas.our team gave up first.and let the guys fight it out.it was a smart choice.hahas.not tht it wasnt funn.it was very funn.i think we all laughed alot alot alot.especially at the guys.theyre hillarious.its just tht thinking of commercials and acting them out were a little too tiring.we ran out of ideas.hahas.
have i said tht the sec 3s '04 rockk ? hahas.were so enthu.so on.hahas.but seriously.guys like mitchell and kah jun add life to everything.hahas.
back to the retreat.aftre lunch we relaxed ? i think larhs.we had dadie's theme talk followed by games.
for games.they split us into new groups.hahas.i got into the group because i blur blur stuckk my head into the line somewhere.but nvm.no regrets.cause my group just rockks.we had to come up with a group name.so we called ourselves eeyore.after poshs stuffed toy.thn we realised we had to come up with a cheer.my grp went reallie wild.all sorts of nonsense came out of us.haha.thn we had this hunt and shoot game.like they gave us a list of things to find and we just had to take photos of them or bring them.smthg like treasure hunt but with an interesting twist.mms.mitchell joel and i did the items on one side while posh and dom did the other side.there were all sorts of wierd stuff on the list.seriously.like purple car.rugby ball.i mean.how on earth do you find those things around the estate.but it was truly enjoyable.lots of memories.like how mitchell walked all the way into someones hse to take a picture of their pink curtains.and asking this other guy if we could take a picture of his sunglasses.plus.joel bought a pineapple.hahas.we found all the items KAE ! thts reallie no mean feat.but wht can i say ? eeyore just rockks ! like duh.
we had an auction to get our dinner with the points we won frm the games.and since eeyore rockks so much.we had the smarts to bid wisely.for not so expensive price tags.we managed to get twisties and uncle mak's ribs.yums.plus ltr we bidded on two apple strudels which auntie bee khim kindly bought us.double yums.hahas.
after all tht excitement.we settled down for the workshops.i went for the vocals one.besides tht which one can i attend ritee ? hahas.it was good.although uncle kim yong claims he took twenty minutes to prepare only.it was a great session. lots of funn and lots of laughs.typical uncle kim yong style.it was short and sweet.
whn we went back up to grace 1.becks had just arrived !! we went into the hall and heard salome hoon sing !! hahas.now shes REALLIE got talent.serious.hahas.well she was doing the keyboard masterclass.and was teaching angel this new song.it was very very extremely nice.posh was so in lurve with it.hahas.smthg abt melting in the song.hees.farnehh.
thn we had supper.QT.rehearsals for the application session.our grp was quite the '?' grp.i dunno how to describe it.all the vocalists were first timers.posh me n mitchell.and mitchell was even leading the worship on his first time.woah.appluase.he was reallie nervous about it.caleb is still rather new to the drums.andrew was on the keyboard.not exactly his first choice.like shimin who was on the bass.the only one comfortable was probably dom on the guitar.hahas.we wasted quite a lot of our rehearsal time.erpxz.so after tht we sat outside the toilets there and started practising.our grp just grew and grew.and soon we had this bigg grp of pple sitting in a circle singing God's praises in the middle of the night.as in literally middle of the night.we sang til about one plus when uncle mak suddenly switched off the lights.
hahas.one o clock was the lights out.but by the time i got to bed it was close to two.but i couldnt sleep.and there were like so many pple talking outside the room.even if i could sleep i wouldnt be able to.ohwells.then becks and i went walking and went down to the basement where she started teaching mitchell physics.mms.in the end i went to bed ard 3.45.but couldnt reallie sleep cause someone was snoring like real loud.and then there was the fact that i kept on waking up for no reason.sigh.whn i finally got out of bed.i was aching all over.
the rest of this morning went by in a breeze.mitchell was like fabulous.he made a few mistakes.but considering it was his first time.it was good.mms.thn we had clean up and it was back home for us (:
hahas.im a lil lazy now.cant be bothered with the nitty gritties any longer.hees.well bye for now.
; rachh
2:45 PM
testimony
I was born to Christian parents, and for as long as I can remember, I have attended church. As far as most people were concerned, that was enough to make me a Christian. In fact, all along I believed that I was a Christian too. However, I never knew what it was like to have a relationship with Him. I never did quiet time. I would read the Bible only on Sundays to find the interesting stories that my Sunday School teachers were telling me. I would only pray when I was in need of something or when I was scared. The only times I thanked God was before my meals. If I had problems, I would tell my friends or I would go running to my parents so that they would solve it for me.
Then, towards the end of 1998, we moved to San Francisco. I think of all the moves we made, that was one of the most difficult. It didn't help much that most of the kids in the school I was enrolled in were already in cliques. Gradually I settled in, but there were these guys that picked constantly on my group of friends. In fact it felt as if I was singled out especially because I was different. They would tease my friends and I until they elicited a response. It was really very frustrating.
Later on, in April 1999, I started having nightmares everytime I went to bed. I would fall asleep only to wake up later that night, crying. This happened daily for about a week and every night my parents would come into my room and comfort me. Finally, one night, my dad sat down next to me and asked me to bring out my Bible. He pointed me to various verses in the Bible which brought me great comfort. The ones that told of God's great love and His promise to always be there for us were the ones that struck a chord especially. My dad then asked whether I wanted God to come into my life, whether I wanted these promises for myself. Naturally, I responded with a yes, after which he led me in the sinners' prayer in asking Jesus Christ to be my Lord and Saviour.
Life after accepting Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour was, well, normal. At that time it didn't seem to have changed much. Looking back now, I realize that I had changed. I was no longer affected by what others said about me; I couldn't be bothered when those guys disturbed me about my being different. I was definitely much happier in school. In fact, so much so that when I left San Francisco, it was with a heavy heart. Holding to the promise that God loved me no matter what and would always be with me, I grew to be more confident and was able to make more friends. Thinking back on those days, I can only think of the happy memories. In fact, it was only as I wrote my testimony that the unpleasant incidents came back to mind. And even so, it doesn't bother me anymore.
I believe that without the Spirit's guidance in my life, I would never be able to even come close to being the person I am today. There is no way I would have changed from the shy, introverted child that I was into who I am now. Leading others like what I am doing in school at present was but an impossible dream to me before I became a Christian. But with God, nothing is impossible and I really have to thank Him for the amazing works that He's done in my life.
* hms. thought it would be good to put my testimony up. but it'll be a lil below. writing about camp !! (: or retreat or whatever. hahas.
; rachh
1:41 PM
Thursday, November 18, 2004
great.
hahs.
just great.
im being wayy too emotional here.
and i know it.
so why cant i just let go.
why..
urghs.
theres smthg very wrong.
not with this world.
with me.
i dont care anymore.
no. i cant say tht. tht wld be a lie. cause if i didnt care no more. i wldnt be typing this. one moment i feel so loved. the next. im out in the cold. whts with tht ? i cant handle it. i cant handle it no more. do you hear me. no. you probably dont. let me go. let me go.
wont you
take me by the hand;
take me somewhere new
i dont know who you are
but im with you*
; rachh
10:04 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
what is this.
thetallesttree
by lim yu ling mary
she lies alone in silent recluse,
shrouded and masked by verdant trees of green,
gazing up at them in longing remorse,
she bows her head low and begins to weep
for the tallest tree there she had once been,
teaming with life and thick, lush greenery.
her royal highness of spindle and silk,
and kingfisher with is brocade of gold,
had all claimed residence among her leaves,
and between branches that hung below.
but then one fine day the clouds grew heavy,
as did the radiant sun make its depart.
searing white light and a deafening crack.
the goliath collapsed and lay, a wreck.
sigh.
there is smthg seriously wrong in this world that we're living in.
; rachh
8:32 PM
screwed up-
hahs.
i am seriously messing up.
dont you agree ?
ouch.
yourepiercingmyheart.
likeaknife.
youtear.yourerippingmeapart.
whyamisoscrewed.
why.
/give me wings to fly away.
fly away.....
from this pain/
; rachh
1:14 AM
to you*
you*i think you noe who you are.and i noe youre gonna read this.
yarh.i said i was fine.yes.i said to forget it.but do you noe how much it hurts.to have a promise forgotten.just swept aside just like tht.do you seriously think everythings gonna be fine.wiht just the snap of your fingers.yeah.i noe youre being reallie nice to me.and i appreciate tht.cos when im down.you somehow manage to cheer me up.but you noe what.im cant handle it when youre not tht person.sometimes it seems to me tht you totally change.like youve got a split personality or smthg.it scares me.how can you just change.just like tht.frm a caring person to one whos so hard and cold.its reallie scary.you noe what.i do like you.youre one of the best frieds ive ever had.in fact probably my best.but at the same time i question myself.i cant help it.i just have to.how can you be my best friend.when i hardly even noe you.isnt that an irony in itself.am i giving too much of myself into this friendship ? or do you just not care at all..
; rachh
1:06 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
ello ello.
im seriously boredd.as in very very boreddd.and my idiotic mouse isnt working.so its sorta like stuck there and im just typing.ritee.this is badd.urghs.ohhkays.its now back to normal.but i bet its gonna get stuck again.glares.ohwells.better than nuthin i suppose.
well well well.church on sunday was.i dunno.i guess it was rather dreary.i mean i noe we're supposed to be meeting God and having fellowship.but the heart just wasnt rite i suppose.and throughout the whole of everything i just cant concentrate.LIAR.glares.a certain someone noes what im talking about.sigh.im being rather childish here.please forgive me.anywae back to the subject.after church.was feeling rather down.went off with auntie lay hong's class for lunch.ate noodles.but like after i finished there was still more than half the food left ? grs.such a waste.ohhhhhkayy.the darn mouse is stuck again.bravo.ohh.hip hip hoorays.its working again.*shakes head.this mouse is seriously more temperamental than me.anywaeee.went to watch ladder49 with the girls and then took like neos.alot.alot.alot.hees.but it was funnn.the three fatsos rockk.oooops.that would be 4 i mean.then went to replace my SIM card.my phones finally working again (: yays.but i lost all my contacts.sadd.
mondayy.i had school.the amazing mrs.yeo taught her supposed to be 4 hr lesson within 2.which meant i got to go home early.went home.watched ella enchanted.it was disappointing !!! urghs.seriously.it doesnt follow the storys wonderful storyline.in fact its rather far off.grs.ruins the show.then amelia came over.we decided to go jogging.so the route was something like jog to auntie karen's place.take a rest.jog back out to heartland mall.buy elyssa's bdae cake.but somehow.we never got to auntie karen's place.hahas.lousy piggies.firstly.my stamina is wayy lousy.and becks and melias are like wayy good.so basically.after awhile i just couldnt handle it.so they went ahead.in order to catch up i didnt rest long.but i couldnt find them !! i ran into every single turning.and somehow i ended up at home ! it was like erms.ritee.so i called becks and realised they were still out there.but they werent running.they were slacking.glares.so it ended up tht i ran much much more than them.cos i had to run back out to where they were stranded.hahaa.from there we went out to heartland mall.went to prima deli but the biggest cake they had was 1kg.mumie wanted like more.so we went out to emicakes which was actually mumie's first choice.however their biggest was 1.2kg and it actually looked smaller.plus it cost like 7 bucks plus plus more than the prima deli one.so we ended up going back there to buy the cake.mms.that's basically my mondayy.
todayy.woke up.brushed teeth reall clean.i had a dental appointment.yea.rushed off for dental.reached there early in hopes that i could rush off to school after that for chem.i had all the stuff i needed to return pple in my bagg.but the stupid thing was i had to wait like eons for my turn.ended up going in around ten thirty.that's like one hour after my actual appointment time.then after changing and adjusting the braces for me.yong tau foo made me go take xrays.eeyur.waste my time.so by the time i wonderfully finished.it was like 11.17.dotts.hahaa.go to school for like around 15 minutes ? yea ritee.im not tht guai.came home.ate a pathetic lunch cos i wasnt reallie hungry.went off to church with dadie.did cross stitch while waiting for bible study to start.sam was late ! hahs.amazing.hees.well i think i either froze to death in the room while having bs or i starved to death.manns.
anywae.just to clarify.wont be going to myanmar.decided tht i dont have the time.what with the event to plan and all.nxt years a better option.like after my Os.im thinking of a one month sorta thing.teach english :) hahas.so funn.then maybe fang yu and hmsee can come along.that reminds me.i need to write 3 testimonials for her.hahaa.yea.i guess thats all.buh byes people !! :)
; rachh
11:30 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
hellos.
do not stand at my grave and weep;
i am not there. i do not sleep.
i am a thousand winds that blow.
i am the diamond glints on snow.
i am the sun on ripened grain.
i am the gentle autumn rain.
when you awake in the morning's hush
i am the swift uplifting rush
of quiet birds in circled flight.
i am soft stars that shine at night.
do not stand at my grave and cry;
i am not there. i did not die.
nice poem ritee ? hahas.we used it during debate workshop.for smthg called choral speaking.quite cool.i reallie liked jia wei's grp's rendition of on the ning nang nong.it was soo entertaining.hahas.ohh yeah.congrats to schezn !! hahas.you go girl.you reallie did well.so calm and composed.you're my idol !! *squeals.hahaa.cherie and abi were great too though.especially abi.i reallie admire the way she can just do her speech impromptu and just be so confident about it all.although her speech wasn't convincing.it was just so captivating and entertaining.definitely.hahas.
todayy was open house.quite funn.but now my toe hurts.urghs.irritating.was late for discipleship and dadie made me run up and down.glares.well.at least it stopped its bleeding.-disgisted look-which reminds me of the disected frog they had in the science lab today.it was eeeeeeewwwwwwwwwie.reallie very very disgusting.there was one frog whose heart was beating like almost what an hour or more after it was cut up.i mean like how disgusting is that ? then there was the cow's heart and the kidney and the cow's eyes !! urghs.so darn gross.i mean they were playing with the eyes.and *shivers.they ended up with cow's eye goo on their clothes.yucks.hahaa.but i think the p6 girls were rather fascinated.and those parents reallie have so much to ask.i mean hello ? but do i look like a walking education information book or smthg ? dotts.hahas.but overall today was rather brilliant :)
anywae people.dont msg me whatever it is.my phone is currently out of order.well theres nuthing wrong with my phone.but someone.SOMEONE.played with my phone and it ended up witht his PUK no thingie.i later found out that that happened because someone typed in the wrong PIN no three times in a row.then after some kind hearted people tried to help me.the PUK no got disabled and now my SIM card is rejected by the phone and i need to get a new one.so wonderful ritee ? and according to janna its gonna cost me a cool 50 bucks.hahs.so great ritee.blarhs.like im not in enough of a debt already.still have to go replace ic.that'll cost like 100 bucks or smthg.plus replace library cards.at the rate im going.i think i'll just starve to death.sigh.
okayy.enough of the deppressing information.i got my shanghai photos yesterday.mrs ang was nice.very nice.but i cant say why shes nice. - vroom. so lames lorhs. but back to the topic.and so today i was looking through all the pics.hahas.the feeling of nonstalgia.ohh sighs.hahaa.there were some real nice photos as well as some reallie retarded ones.and a photo of me sleeping ! urghs.im gonna kill whoever it is that gave that photo..hahas.but ohwells.the worst part is that my big and wonderful face is on the cd.and although its not centerised.its like the first thing that catches your attn.loud groan.ohwells.that cant be undone i suppose.
well.i gotta go sleep le.tmr still got church :)
considering going for the myanmar mission trip :)) will update about that soem other time.buh byes~!
; rachh
11:34 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
raise eyebrows-
rachh.
have youu been here??
seems like there's a lot here waiting for youu. =/
tk care sweets. and come online lahh.
; ange
5:49 PM
